hancur

terkadang..
kalo gue boleh milih
gue ga pengen dilahirin
gue cuma pengen damai sehari aja di rumah
apa kalian ngga bisa bikin suasana damai
gue jenuh. gue bosen, jengah denger omongan kalian
gue bosen harus ngerasa kaya gini terus
gue pengen jadi anak baik..
nggak pengen ngerepotin kalian terus
nggak pengen ngebebanin kalian
nggak pengen bikin kalian kecewa
tapi apa kalian pernah ngertiin perasaan gue?
nggak pernah
gue cuma pengen
bikin kalian bahagia
bikin kalian bangga
bikin kalian senyum
tapi kayanya gue cuma jadi beban
ga ada gunanya, useless.
gue tau , gue cuma seorang anak bodoh
yang nggak tau apa-apa
yang nggak pernah punya inisiatif.
tapi gue selalu berusaha.
kalian menuntut, tapi kalian tidak memberi kesempatan.
gue bukan robot, gue cuma manusia biasa.
gue juga pengen sama kaya yang lain.
mereka yang deket sama keluarganya.
gue iri.
gue juga pengen kaya temen-temen yang lain.
yang boleh bergaul sama anak lainnya.
gue kecewa.
udah gue buang jiwa bermain gue jauh-jauh.
tapi kalian nggak pernah ngerti.
gue sayang kalian. apa kalian sayang juga sama gue?
kapan gue bisa jadi diri gue sendiri di depan kalian?
semoga suatu saat bisa.
gue harap ini cuma proses.
semuanya butuh waktu.
semoga suatu saat..

Seketika awan biru berubah menjadi hitam kelam. Seperti hati ini yang sedang diterpa badai. Kemanakah kapal yang terombang-ambing ini mengarah? Kompas dan bintang berhamburan seperti debu yang di hembus angin.

kenapa sih kenapa sih kenapa?
satu pertanyaan yang selalu ada di otak gue.
saat lagi deket sama seseorang kita jadi sering terkena sindrom aneh yang sering disebut dengan "gaalau"

it have been so long since we have chatted :)
yaa ampun sebuah kata2 yang bisa bikin gue lumer, padahal cuma kaaya gitu doang hahahaha :D

Contoh Review Text - The Heretic's Daughter

The Heretic's Daughter

A Novel

 by Kathleen Kent

 Paperback, Oct 2009,

368 pages.

review by : Diska Amanda

I absolutely love this novel, and this book will always hold a special place in my heart. Kathleen Kent's novel, from the perspective of young Sarah Carrier, was moving and informative. The Salem witch trials, and that time in history, were obviously well researched by Kent and written so that the reader can see and feel what the characters lived through.

hari ini bintang ngelucu bilang gini
kakak paling ganteng
mama paling jelek
papi paling cantik
apaaa coba??

ade ku yang satu ini emang paling bisa mencairkan suasana kalo situasinya lagi nggak enak..
pengeeeen banget nanti kuliah tetep bisa sama bintang <3

Your Love

A gentle word like a spark of light,
Illuminates my soul
And as each sound goes deeper,
It's YOU that makes me whole

There is no corner, no dark place,
YOUR LOVE cannot fill
And if the world starts causing waves,
It's your devotion that makes them still

And yes you always speak to me,
In sweet honesty and truth
Your caring heart keeps out the rain,
YOUR LOVE, the ultimate roof

So thank you my Love for being there,
For supporting me, my life
I'll do the same for you, you know,
My Beautiful, Darling Wife.

- David G. Kelly -

A Special World

A special world for you and me
A special bond one cannot see
It wraps us up in its cocoon
And holds us fiercely in its womb.

Its fingers spread like fine spun gold
Gently nestling us to the fold
Like silken thread it holds us fast
Bonds like this are meant to last.

And though at times a thread may break
A new one forms in its wake
To bind us closer and keep us strong
In a special world, where we belong.

- Sheelagh Lennon -